Life is just a game, and everyone who plays is just a pawn.

Snapshot 1 (3-13-2014 11-39 AM)

Are you one of my pawns? hah, of course you are.

So I go check my po box about once a week since it’s cold and there’s almost always presents waiting for me! It’s great.

So at the begining of every year I clear out the videos in my clip store that haven’t sold. So you will find that there are less videos.Most of the videos that were removed weren’t mine.But there were a few. Don’t worry those videos aren’t gone forever and will appear on my membership site for people to still see.

I also change the top featured videos every year.So the top 5 most sold videos are easy to find.These 5 videos aren’t for the year. They are the ones that have sold the most since I put the store up.

I have a lot more content to put up on the membership site. Such as liliths videos, however I have yet to do that because it kind of disturbs me that there’s really no way to seperate them from my own videos.Continuing to wait is probably not getting me anywhere as there may never be. I know that you guys can favorite the videos and make lists so maybe I’ll go ahead and try to post them anyway and things won’t get overly cluttered.

For those that have been emailing me lately no I haven’t struck it rich. And no I’m not dead.I just have a large family. And it seems someones always sick. Or there’s dentist,doctor,eye appointments, or school functions.

I worked my butt off for 12 years almost nonstop and anymore I admit videos are more of a hobby. Family comes first now and I just have to fit everything else in when I have time.

I know I don’t always make the type of videos people want to see. Chances are I probably won’t. But there is a simple solution to getting what you want. Need more nudity? Simply email me and request your own video. It’s not like I don’t make a variety of videos, I just don’t do them unless I’m asked.

The only videos I don’t make are really with other people.However I am ok with blowjob or handjob videos… videos not so much. Maybe if your expectations are low.Sex videos don’t tend to work out to well for me.Maybe if you want 2 minutes or less of sex.Cuz that’s about as long as I can get it to last lol.

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Nothing but Bronchitis for christmas


yea yea, for the first time in many years the only thing I received for christmas was bronchitis. I even had some cunts tell me they were going to spend more than ever!
But I am pleased to say mikisbi has paid his 100 dollar soul removal fee even in my absence truth is I didn’t think he would..haha.I guess he really doesn’t wanna screw it up.Good job not needing my encouragement and just doing it!

As you know I had a bad month dealing with all the dentists appointments and such. I am healed now but of course caught bronchitis right after. since christmas was coming and my kids were on vacation and all home I decided for once just to go on vacation with them. If being home sick with an outrageous cough and fever is really a vacation.
Either way it’s slightly getting better, that shit takes forever to go away, and I’ll be back at things on the 5th.

My cough is so bad I should have been making fetish videos but who the hell really feels like it when they are sick.
Today is new years. And I didn’t even realize it until I got a text telling me so that’s how out of it i’ve been.It’s like the first time ever I didn’t at least sit alone and watch the ball drop on tv in…like 20 years.So that made me a little sad.

And for me a new year really just means I’m about to have another birthday and get older…again lol.
But I am as always excited to see what a new year holds for us, and what fun we shall all enjoy together.

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Normally when I get on my knees it’s not to pray


So a couple updates. I’ve decided not to shut down it’s just been around to long, and the monthly fee isn’t killing me even if I don’t appreciate it.
This blog is several years old and I’m just not ready to let it go.(even I enjoy going back and reading through it at times)

I’ve also decided to bring back the fetish script store(yes another monthly fee that’s not worth it)
Thing is without it I have to write the code and such to add the scripts to my site manually by hand, and let’s face it I suck at getting around to things, which means I have a lot more scripts than actually appear there.Plus I’m sure people would rather click and buy than have to email me and pay me. So although money wise it’s not really worth it, maybe eventually it’ll get more use and be worth it, but for now it actually just saves me time. Right now I’m trying to bring back the old store that I already had so I do not have to start all over, unfortunately that’s proving to be a pain in the ass. Hopefully I can get it back. If not I’ll post a new link when the new store is ready.

Obviously the fees aren’t bad, 30 bucks a month for and the script store. I’m just looking at it from a business point of view which is doesn’t actually generate any money. My members site does. And the script store…well I make like 10-20 dollars a month on scripts. So in reality I am taking a loss on these things but not a lot maybe 100 bucks a year or so, not really worth bitching about and if I bring em back maybe sales will increase and make it more worth my time.

I’d like to thank hookedonyou again for sending me tips, love it!. Sorry for the lack of video updates. Maybe my new years resolution will be to actually write a schedule out for myself so things aren’t so chaotic.

I know there’s several people emailing me and begging for custom videos. It never really ceases to amaze me that even when I disappear and take time off,or even just ignore you guys you never give up on me.Your so loyal ….and needy.Please don’t think I don’t appreciate it because I do. I know there’s a lot of girls who can’t make any money and I often have people begging to give it to me and I don’t act on it.You guys have made my experience much different than a lot of girls have. I’m spoiled thanks to you.It’s just difficult for me to get around to everything. And honestly I go through phases.

I assure you I’m not dead, I haven’t quit or retired.Nor will I ever.However it is common for me to get a bit burnt out and disappear for a month or so or just get distracted by other things.I always come back.

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So very sorry


I do appologize for not being around much…all year really. Apparently it’s not a good year for my health, or time.

Recently I had a toothache, I’m sure we’ve all been there. By the time I got to the dentist it didn’t really hurt anymore. But I decided to go ahead and have them pull it anyway cuz I didn’t want any future problems. Because of that I’ve been in pain all week. I never knew getting a tooth pulled could cause so many problems. I’ve taken a million pills and….well a lot of alcohol lol. Getting it removed was worse than the actual toothache I had to start with, pretty retarded.

In the instructions the dentist gave me #1 was do not smoke for 2 hours. Of course that’s the first thing I did when I got back in my car.Thankfully even though he numbed my mouth there was just barely enough feeling on one side of my lips to smoke haha. Although I did bite my tongue on the way home which caused further pain, and then of course upon arrival at home I started my period, which caused even more pain…..blah. To say the least this week has been pure hell.

I’m not avoiding you guys on purpose. I no longer have money problems and I always said even if I had money I’d still do this. I think I’ve kept my word, granted it’s not as often as if it were a full time job but I try, I just have the worst luck ever. Mo money mo problems right. I would like to tell you it’s going to get better but I have my doubts.

My teeth have never been great, since I had so many kids. And either I was knocked up and the dentists couldn’t help me at the time or I just didn’t have the money to go do anything about it.Now I can. I am having my doubts though after all the pain I’ve been in this week. I have at least 3 more appointments in december, for my teeth. I am totally wanting to back out of it but I know it’ll make me look better and so I’m trying to be brave and go through with it. However no one has EVER commented on my teeth. I know people can be mean , especially on youtube and such so I feel delighted that everyone always takes to me so well and I never really have dealt with negative comments. I think you guys are awesome.

I kinda become withdrawn when I’m sick or in pain, but then that was kinda the purpose of straightening out my life, so that if I want or need time off I can have it.

Of course winter has arrived and it’s already brought snow. I will point out that I live at a lake. It’s not like there’s city maintenance or anything here really to clear the roads, and often even if the highways and such are clear….it’s really never clear here all winter. So for the most part I really don’t get out much once the snow starts falling. Which means I won’t be checking the po box as often. I know some of you send money and such to me, I just might not get it right away.

This site really serves no purpose anymore other than costing me money every month. But I’ve kept it for you guys. Truth is I should probably use the blog on model centro as that’s where my members are. But then all these years of blogs would be lost that some people like to read back through. Tho admitedly that is not the reason I even keep it. It’s still active for only one reason, and that is my fetish scripts.

My fetish script writing isn’t something that generates a lot of money, But I enjoy helping and writing for the other girls when they need me. That is why the scripts are no longer in an actual store to be purchused , the monthly costs just weren’t worth it.
Unfortunately model centro does not give me the option to make a page to list my scripts. And until they do I guess I’m still paying for this….always paying for something right…

In the long term hopefully they give me some way to get those scripts up. My model centro site will take on the name and this will be shut down.

I am feeling a bit better now. Hopefully I’ll get some videos recorded tomorrow.

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Mourning Wood


Sorry for the delay in videos I guess it’s just that time of year everyone here’s getting ill. I shall get back on them as soon as I can. I’m sure cunt is waiting as patiently as he can,but secretly dying inside without me.

Thank you Ryan for the 20 dollar tip, it’s definately appreciated for all the hard work I haven’t been doing, heh

I am quite addicted to the destiny game. lots of newbs I have to pwn . I’m just kidding, I kinda suck at the pvp, but practice makes perfect.

I do think it’s time to upgrade from the 360 to a xbox one though cunt…maybe that’s what I want for christmas.

I know many of you still message me a lot begging to see me. Seriously I don’t really do live shows much anymore.I really only do videos by request.
I suppose at this point it’s mostly a hobby rather than a job for me, which is how I prefer it. No one likes to be made to do anything for money. So now I kinda just function when I want to.

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July 18th

Am I getting soft, I don’t even have any snazzy blog titles anymore, lol.

Not much going on just thought I’d write cuz I know some of you really enjoy it.
I’ve been spending much of my time outside trying to build myself a new closet. Adding onto a house even if it’s just a 10×10 area is actually quite expensive…blah.
So feel free to send me money. Actually I have paid for most of it myself. I need about another 200 dollars to get the remaining items.

I also recently dug a koi pond but haven’t really gotten started on that. For now it’s just a big dirt hole in my yard.
I’m a girl so the closets way more important haha.
Actually I’m not a typical girl and could really care less, but my actual room is so small I’m tired of trying to keep it clean, it’s almost impossible. Removing my clothes/shoes out of this room would help a ton. It looks like crap during videos.

So let’s cover what some sin junkies are up to.

Brett…still being seduced to forget his girlfriend and drain his balls daily for me.
Robert…still won’t admit to being a smoker
Brandilynn…after a short tantrum we may have a better understanding(and I learned she actually can speak in more than 1 sentence at a time)
Daniella… a whore
Trixie…has a new mistress but some how still messages me that I give her no attention…eh I wonder why? lol

I always feel like I’m forgetting people and I probably am

Don’t forget to contact me if you want custom videos from Lilith. She is having a rough time right now and could use our love.
She is also on niteflirt occasionally and has her own website which is listed on

I am also on niteflirt most nights between 10-midnight sometimes earlier.

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Bleed for me

I was suppose to be cleaning my room right now. See how distractable I am. I’ll do anything to get out of it.
Just figured I’d update since I haven’t for a while.

The new websites going great, people seem to be enjoying the videos. Do not forget Lilith has her own site also, since I did not wish to combine our videos.

Also please don’t forget you can sign up and promote my site and make money off of me. Wouldn’t you like some of that cash you spend on me back? Lol just look for the affiliate program.

Please stop emailing me to tell me my youtube account is gone. Believe me I know…what a relief?!! haha, I’m such a cunt. Don’t worry there is a new one. There always will be, just look up sinistress or sinocalypse I’m seriously not that hard to find yall.

I also wanted to mention I am typically on every night between 9-midnight or so, except the days I don’t feel like it.So go check it out just look up sinistress if you wanna smoke or get off with me

We can’t have a post without some pictures so I know some of you will enjoy this, a friend sent over to me lol

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Shopping Spree

So I finally got to go out for a weekend. Took a trip to the mall. I will be releasing some of the videos I took while I was there. I have some pics for you. Shame you can’t really smoke in public areas, they are pretty and there was already trash in the ponds so why not?In fact apparently you can’t even vape in such places to get your nicotine fix.

I spent most of my time out looking at guns and fishing stuff…but I did it in a dress to make up for the fact I’m such a tomboy.

I did have a little accident of walking into the mens room. They seemed overly happy to see me.I did not do it on purpose. I’m not sure if I were a dude walking into the womens restroom that they’d have been as amused.

I also went into victorias secret to buy panties for the first time ever. That was embarrassing to. I’m not use to people coming up and asking me such questions like do you want cotton or silk? full or thong? Now I know why I order all my things online.

I have started my diet to loose some weight. So far so good. Better look out Brandilynn I’ve already dropped 15-20 pounds in only a week. It’s crazy but true. And thats even after my few pig outs of cheetos,a meatball sub,some ice cream and…yea taco bell. I’m guessing it’s mostly from giving up my mt dew addiction.

Lilith has her own website now feel free to sign up if you so desire. There’s not a lot of videos on it yet because frankly I didn’t see the point if there were no members, so once there are some the videos will be updated. you can find the sign up link on

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Hail Hell update

So I have mostly repaired my truck cost me around 600 dollars. Here’s some pictures of the damage it had for your amusement.


There’s a lot more damage than this. It knocked my hub caps off, broke a turn signal, and cracked the back windshield wiper, left a huge hole in my front grill. People always jump right in to asking about insurance. I admit I do have insurance, but not the kind that would cover this. It isn’t like a storm comes through once a year and trashes your car. I’m 36 and this is actually the first time. So although I have paid for it out of my own pocket, all the insurance I coulda paid in for the last 20 years would have totaled a lot more. My thinking I’m sure would be different if I had a brand new 50k dollar car, but I don’t. So I’d rather just take my money and get a garage or carport.

The storm also cracked all the new siding I put up on my house. And broke my kitchen window. Thankfully I actually had an extra window, and a whole box of new siding I hadn’t used. So I can repair that as well.

I still have to repair the windshield on the other truck. So about 300 more bucks to get.

Don’t forget you can schedule shows with me anytime during the day, preferably from 10am-midnight central time.
If you try to sign up to my website to watch all the videos and can’t just email me and I can set it up by hand and give you other payment options.

There is also now a link leading to Liliths membership site on I decided to keep hers separate from mine because it would be to hard to track the money.

I suppose we should cover the people I have spoken to recently.

Rocken- hmm. He is on vacation. Contacted me a few times but failed to mention any cigarette withdrawls. I’m guessing because his partner is leaving him alone much to much and he is actually getting enough time to smoke.

Smoke pig has called me on nitelfirt. I do love tormenting him, shame his phone died before he actually got off….or is it?

michael has called me and still apparently needs seduced away from his wife after all this time. Enough smokey fucks and his will power might eventually disappear

Brett apparently thinks I’m not being mean enough to get rid of his girlfriend. but brett…aren’t you kinda forgetting I don’t need to get rid of her to turn you into a fag. I mean once you can’t get an erection for her anymore, she can stick around all she wants, haha

Brandilynn is concerned that her ass just can’t take my big strap on. And apparently isn’t overly appreciative of the female period. Poor thing, just light up another cigarette, you’ll feel better.

Daniella has purchased herself a new 7 inch toy that she’s just dying to play with, I suppose I should bless her with a new video.

Rachel is slowly giving up on his ecigs and reverting back into a filthy smoker.

Matthew purchased a video recently. Seems blackmail turns him on, cuz he’s back for more. Shame I never actually got the present he bought me from my wishlist, but the point is he did actually obey and buy it.

There are more. If you got left out don’t get all whiny on me. My brain can only hold so much and I have a short attention span. Maybe you should have tried harder to impress me or stand out more to be included here.

Oh yea…and yes I’m aware Ramadan is coming you cunts. And yes there will be videos. It’s true I didn’t want to deal with it or you, or your fucked up religion. But you can thank evilthought for purchasing a bunch of gifts off my wishlist and making me feel obligated to come back and remind you who you really belong to. And it isn’t that pig allah.

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Hail Hell

So a storm came thru tuesday night and knocked out one house window and 5 windows in the vehicles I have.
about 800 dollars total to fix em all so feel free to request videos or shows…lol

Don’t forget to check out is actually just in a stall period right now waiting for the domain to expire. I do not use the site for the people who keep asking about it. All the 2evil clips can still be seen on the link I just provided.

You can also contact me for a list of them and buy them individually.

Don’t forget to schedule your webcam sessions with me when you want them. Seems like a lot of people sit around waiting for me to announce I’m doing them so they can get them RIGHT Now…it’s not likely to happen.

As a lot of you have also noticed my youtube channel got banned. It was expected, I’m not exactly a good girl. It’s a risk you take if you ask me to post the videos there instead of having me send them to you. And no I won’t send them back out later to you. You get one or the other. The videos aren’t lost tho. They are on clips4sale. They are also in the members area of my website.

I am currently working on getting liliths membership site up as well for those who are interested.

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